On March 27, 2009 I posted the blog which I have added below. I was just beginning to experiment with blogging. The site isn't available anymore but I am able to access my old blogs. The day I wrote this my emotions were swirling like a plastic grocery bag caught up in a West Texas dust devil. (For those of you on the other side of the globe, the photo on the right is to help clarify "dust devil") Thanks to some wonderful counseling from my sweet friend Jay I made it through a really tough few weeks. The words below are all still true but they don't sting nearly as much today as they did then.
My Daddy died last Sunday. The memories are bitter sweet. As a little girl I couldn’t have loved my daddy more. As a teenager there was disappointment. As a young woman a glimmer of hope which was shadowed again with more disappointment. Now I’m 50 and I loved my daddy and I will miss him but I’m left with feelings that I don’t know what to do with. He loved BIG. He was human and he failed at much just like the rest of us. He loved the Lord and for that I am grateful. I know I will see him in heaven. In death as in life he left me wanting just a little more of him for me. I miss my daddy but then I have missed him for most of my life. Unanswered questions but God knows and I trust in His healing power which I carry within me.