Why does our flesh crave attention so much? Why is pride such a stumbling block? Why do we cry out to be seen and heard? Haven't we all at some point in our lives been star struck? Haven't we all wanted to be like someone else? Haven't we all wanted to be known? Why do we post all those pictures and videos of ourselves on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram? Are we seeking notoriety of some sort? What drives us to work hard at our craft or talent? Why do we label those who don't crave the spotlight as odd, weird or eccentric?
I know that at some point in my life I have been guilty of all of the above. I have had false hope in myself and my abilities on way too many occasions. Too often I have taken the credit for something that I alone could never do. Honestly, though I would like to, I can't even take credit for anything good in my girls. While 3 of them grew in my womb, I was not the one who formed them. If I have ever offered them any good advice or have given them good instruction, even that came from God. So while it's easy for me to rob God of His glory, in the end I must admit that there is nothing good in me unless by His will He put it there.
God makes us. God gifts us. All talent, wisdom and strength come from Him. We are His creation for His pleasure. We may work really hard to develop our talents, but in doing that, are we working for His glory or our own? Are we using the talents He has supplied in us for His cause or our own? "A person cannot receive even one thing unless it is given him from heaven." John 3:27. Too many of us believe the lie that our lives belong to us to do with as we choose. We live in the here and now and give no thought to our eternal purpose. This does not just apply to the lost either. There are many who are serving in the church all over the world who struggle with the same issue.
I don't have the answers to all the questions I've asked and probably never will in my time on earth. I guess I don't really need to know all the answers as long as I know THE ONE who has all the answers. Today I'm asking God to help me to serve with humility and grace and to cast out arrogance and pride. I need Him to remind me at every moment to whom I belong. I want Him to fill me with adoration of who He is in me and then let the "me" fade away so that all that is left to be seen is HIM! Maybe it's time to sit courageously quiet on the back row and be the odd, weird or eccentric one.
"He must increase, but I must decrease." John 3:30