Do you always engage when you are singing praise songs? Do you really listen to the words and take them to heart every time you are singing them? Do you really mean those words? I would like to think that I do, but the truth is, I don't always. Sometimes I sing along just because I like the tune or I've sung it a hundred times and I simply like singing it. Honestly, sometimes I'm not truly worshipping when I'm singing at church. Yes, I'm letting the cat out of the bag. Sometimes I am just a clanging gong in the Lord's ear and it has little to do with my aging vocal ability. My mind often wonders and I don't always take to heart the words that I'm proclaiming at the top of my lungs.
Another confession...I like to raise my hands when I'm praising. Label me charismatic if that's not your thing. It's fine by me. Yes, I'm one of "THOSE people". There were times when you couldn't have pried my hands from the back of the pew in front of me let alone get me to lift them in praise. I've matured a bit since then and learned that we all praise differently. I can't see me playing the tambourine anytime soon but I did do a great deal of dancing in Africa and Guatemala when I went to church there. Maybe it was just a bit of the old saying, "When in Rome". Truth be told though, I kinda liked it! I've decided there is nothing wrong with being exuberant when we praise.
Last month I was struck by a phrase in a praise song. This particular time I was truly engaged in the words of the songs I was singing. The overwhelming theme of two of the songs was God's love for us. I'm singing along to a song I know I've sung at least 100 times and fully agreeing with every word out of my mouth when all the sudden, I felt a deep sense of sadness. I'm joyfully proclaiming that the riches of Your love will always be enough, when I become painfully aware that not everyone can sing those words and mean them. I'm also aware that there have been many times in my own life when those words were not true for me either.
Is it really enough? We sing about God's love being all we need but do we live our lives every day as though we truly believe what our lips are professing? What about when we are alone or lonely? What about when we have been cast out or abandoned? What about when we feel utter desperation or fear? What about when we feel defeated or cheated? What about when we feel wronged? What about when we get a diagnosis that shakes us to the core? Do we believe with all our heart in those moments that God's love is enough?
We may not always believe it but it is true. God's love is enough! It can break through any barrier and through the blackest night. It can cover over a multitude of sins. It gives us hope when we have none. In God's love we find our freedom. We find courage to believe. In God's love we even find the courage to believe that His love is enough.
The bible says love never fails. This means, it never stops, it is never insufficient, it never disappoints, it is never undependable, and it never falls short. That sounds like it's enough for me!
Gosh, I'm in the mood now to go do some praising. If only I had a tambourine! Hmm....