|My Grandfather on left in 1914.|
I admit I was a bit confused and surprised by the quick response. I started going through my list of questions to make sure my prayers weren't being hindered by my worldly view. Was I asking the impossible? No, the bible tells me nothing is impossible for God. Was I being selfish in my request? I honestly don't think so. Would it change the course of my family history? Yes. Would lives be changed for the good in the long run. Absolutely. So what do you do in this situation? What do you do when you ask God for something and you don't get the response you had hoped for?
I've spent some time thinking about it and have come to the conclusion that for me, in this particular instance, God was telling me that He could do it but that I wouldn't be able to bear it. Since He has promised not to give me more than I can bear, I will take comfort in knowing that He knows what is best for me. I will ask God to help me pray in accordance with His will so that I know that my prayers will be answered. I will remember what my pastor Patrick Payton said in 2002, "Prayer is where my arguments for my will and my choices begin to cease and where I adjust and surrender to the purposes and plans of God.". I will refine my request until it lines up with God's will.
I love that I can courageously go before the throne of grace and continue to plead my case to a loving Father who will tell me no when it's for my good and encourage me to dig deeper within myself to reconcile the answer. No matter what the history records say, my Father is God. I am His treasured child and when I depart this world and my records are entered for future generations, I pray that no matter what else is said of me, that what will stand out is that I was a Christ Follower and that my descendants true heritage lies in heaven.